Day 1....

Well I started in a good round number. Right? I haven't seen a number this high for a long time. Years in fact. That both pisses me off and scares me to death. I don't want to be this big for the rest of my life. I really don't. So here is my before picture.

Scary yes. Permanent no. I will never see this again. Never. So good bye to 180lbs and hello to healthy. Seriously I mean it this time. Really.

So what have I done about it today? I did my first P90X workout, Chest and Shoulders. Ouch, Pull-ups and Push-ups. my favorite... not. Maybe once I can do them without struggling I will start to love them. Maybe. I have saved the Ab Ripper X portion of the workout for later this afternoon. I like to split my workouts up through the day so that I don't get too sedentary for the rest of my day.

So now that you have seen my start, here is my goal. My current goal is to get to 160lbs by Christmas. That is 20 lbs in 20 weeks. That is SO reasonable. Even with my starting a new job and having the holidays in there.; I can do it, and I will do it. I will.

It's past time

Really, it's true, I talk a good game, I make myself look like I am trying to be a healthier person, but really I am only sort of trying. And sort of committing. It's like I have an addiction to crap.... to eating it, to treating myself like it, and to accepting it. So really, now, it is time to become a better version of me. A better person, not for my family, not for my friends, but for me, because I deserve it. Because I am worth trying to get better for. I will break the habits of laziness and complacency and I will shock people with how amazing I am by this time next year. Watch me!

So how am I going to do that? Where do I go from here? Well, I am going to start with something that has worked for me before I just need to compete it and then continue on from there and not stop. I'll be doing the P90X program again. I went through it 2 years ago and loved the results as well as the way that I felt. Now I just have to make sure that as well as completing it I have to have a plan for after. Wish me luck.